sometimes i just want to SCREAM..

like that phrase, life is like a bed of roses..
no matter how pretty or beautiful it looks, it's just the cover..
within the beauty, there are thorns.
lots of them... small , sharp and painful..
it pricks you when you are not careful.
it pricks you even if you are careful..
yet you can't choose not to touch it, cause you are 'it'..

the thorns are the setbacks we had in life..
some cause are bleeding, physically..
some cause are bleeding, in the heart..
while some causes both to happen..
it will happen no matter what..
i know reality is harsh and we cant run away from it...
i know i had to face it one day..
but now i chose to run away from it..

the reason is simple..
it's because i know i can't deal with it now..
i don't have the ability now..
i don't understand what i can do..
i really don't understand how it happened..
though i know it causes by me, partially..

our life is full of choices..
the choices cause the outcome..
and i knew i had to accept it as it's my choice..
but sometimes (or often) we don't know the outcome of the choices..
therefore, making choices we regrets..
so, i know there's no one to blame for the outcome except me myself for making that choice..

had a chat with a friend.. which the chat is the roots of this post..
the reason i wrote this post...

what am i to you? can you tell me??